It’s been a rough week here.
After the fun of the Birkie weekend, and the relief of having Piper back home Ivy got sick,
and then Clara got sick,
and then I got sick,
and now from the way John sounds he’s getting it too.
Life here hasn’t been the best, there have been tears, and fevers, and puking, and coughing, and more tears.
It has made for sleepless nights and difficult days.
Tonight I accidentally used kid number one to knock kid number two off a chair. Kid number two went flying to land flat on her back, which horrified me so I dropped kid number one, and ended up with two kids screaming on the floor.
Then when they were both safely tucked in bed I had a few tears of my own.
Because even though I know it was an accident and everything is OK, there is that nasty mommy guilt.
Because even though I had no idea Clara had climbed up on the chair I still used Ivy to send her flying to the floor.
Because even though I dropped Ivy because she wouldn’t put her feet down and stand when I asked her to so I could check Clara, I still dropped her to check her sister.
All those people with their warnings about parenthood; in addition to being obnoxious they were wrong.
It’s not the sleepless nights that will get you.
It’s not even the subtle and not so sublte lifestyle changes that occour after you have children that you need to watch out for.
It’s the mommy guilt.
It’ll get you every time.
Yup, It’s been a rough week, but we are hanging on…
… I just hope someone gives us our chair back soon!
P.S. I have no idea how Clara got herself in this predicament today. I walked into the kitchen and found Clara looking fairly happy and stable, so I snapped a quick picture before helping her down.
Ivy was nowhere to be seen.