Just over a year ago, our favorite internet dinosaur Rarasaur wrote “ Sometimes the benefit of fighting for truth isn’t worth the cost of winning,” and shortly after surrendered herself to police custody. And there she has remained.
The last letter I received from her told of her excitement to be counting her remaining days in prison in double digits and of the first hug she shared with her husband in over a year. It was a letter full of hope and the daring thoughts of future plans.
Just days later, I heard that her husband had passed away.
A year ago, facing an unknown prison sentence, she left the her internet friends with these words:
“I know some of you have aching hearts right now, as I would if I read something like this about you. I wish I could be here to comfort you, but I won’t be– so instead, let’s go over some Rarasaur lessons together, alright?
Take the deepest breath you can. Then take one more.
Now let it go.
See? You are capable of so much more than you expect. And so am I. Let your worries about me fade away.
Wiggle your hands around.
Be dazzled by the miracle that is your perfect body!
Press your hands to your heart. Do you feel the heat and rhythm?*
It is as constant and warm as my gratitude for you.
You are loved, and you have changed my life for the better.
Now that you’re unbeatable, try to remember what I asked of you oh-so-long-ago. I want you to laugh. So laugh, joyfully and with strength. I can hear it, and it brings a smile to my face.”
Now I would like to turn around and say those words back to her.
If you’d like to send her a note, a bit of RawrLove from afar, you can send it here:
Radhika Jaini WF0124
CIW LA 249 UP
16756 Chino-Corona Road
Corona, CA 92880
That’s a genuine Rarasaur “Rawr” surrounded by all the love we could wring out of our art supplies. I’ll send a picture of it along with my next letter to her.
Behind the Willows 
What heartbreaking news. My prayers go to her.
😦 sadness
I don’t know the story behind this, Jessie – but it’s a wonderful post.
Oh no! I’ve been following Rara’s story over the past year and was wondering how much time she had left in jail. This is such sad news…
❤ this post and the message you are sending, even during this horrible time for our friend.
So honestly, I read this and then kept kind-of scrolling up and down the page like the words we going to change or something. Then I read the post at Matticus Kingdom a couple of times, sort of clicking back and forth between here and there. Then I sent Rara a card, I just put it in the mail now. Thanks for including her up-to-date address.
Thank you for writing this. 🙂 Love like this means a lot.
I read this all the time, in case you were curious about strange statistics. I never know what to say. It breaks my heart and heals it… all at once. *hugs* I love you guys.
I…
You…
Yes..
And…
*sigh*
We love you too.
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